No, I haven’t lost completely my mind just yet!! I just love my peace of mind.
It is no secret to my readers, followers and entourage that I have been doing quite good. In fact, I’m happier being me a little more every day that passes by, I’ve left behind quite a few people as they were holding me back, Now I’m officially done with my undergrad studies and looking forward to entering the job market and in due time go to grad school.
In previous posts, I have illustrated in various ways how it is often hard for me to say NO to others and more often YES to Myself. I’m doing more of that because I enjoy being lost in Lalaland as much as I can. Their is an incredible feeling of wellness doubled with a sense of freedom that takes over your life once you take that step.
I can’t avoid the outside world but I can control who enters my private world. I have taken a step back from some, deleted some without looking back. Our mental well being and our happiness is in our hands.
I’m learning to do things in my personal life more on my own terms. The last few months in school have been extremely stressful and some people in my life have added to that ongoing stress. Thankfully I also have a good support system that in the contrary kept the positive vibe going.
I have written about the importance of walking away from people and things that no longer helped us grow as individuals. It is hard to let go of the person and hold on to the good memories you shared with them. It is hard to accept they are not who and what you need anymore and that perhaps they never were.
We often idealize people and turn a blind eye to some of their behaviours that are in fact warning signs to keep it moving. No one is perfect, we all have our flaws, we all made the wrong choices at some point in life but some go beyond that and it is hard to accept when it is someone you came to care about very deeply.
I love my Lalaland, my peaceful place, my fun easy-going crew so when someone or something is disturbing the positive vibe, I choose to either distance myself temporarily and in some cases permanently. It feels so damn good. Some people are like vampires they suck the life out of you. Think of your own equilibrium first. Embrace life!!
Stay in Lalaland….
MC Jeanty, August 2014